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Quick couple of Angel recs by Jennifer Oksana (who I always read as "Jennifer Okaa-sama"... proof that anime can rot your brain!)

How To Make Yourself A Monster is a young Lilah piece that rings so true it's scary. Wonderful characterisation and a lovely twist between truth, lies and honesty.

Wishing To Be Snow is officially how I want next season to go. I love this Cordy; self-aware, regretful, optimistic and not pulling any punches. (More tactless Cordy of Sunnydale High, than the St. Cordelia of L.A.) Very nice.


So, went out last Thursday and met a friend of a friend (E). Jut got an email back from said friend who mentioned, "E was interested, by the way, but she said she didn't get the vibe from you."

Me? I got the impression she was just friendly and pretty drunk. I have a definite lack of awareness when it comes to picking up on other people's interest. Not looking for anything at the moment, really very happy in my little antisocial, 'net focused, lifestyle and I tend to live inside my own head a great deal of the time. Plus, I've never been accused of actually being observant...

Maybe it's just me. I tend to back off pretty fast if people come on strong. At the same time, I'm not observant enough to notice subtle signals, either. I can pick it up on other people, and generally I've got a reasonably accurate instinct when it comes to people being interested in other people. Can't actually define it down to individual gestures, it's just an overall impression. When it comes to me, I don't.

I think I automatically assume that other people are just being friendly. When I meet someone new, I always tend to think of them as a friend. Occasionally, I'll be attracted to someone, but not very often, and I often ignore it... so that's probably what's bothering me. She was cute, and interesting, with a fun sense of humour, and I was friendly. Even if I'd picked up on the fact that she liked me, I still probably wouldnt have done anything because
a) I am pretty damn timid (quick on the defensive, but need time to screw up courage for any kind of encouragement...) and
b) she was pretty drunk (which is always makes me think the better of it. Had one of those experiences of a drunk one-night stand, and waking up not really remembering much, but regretting it all the same.)

So, it's just a case of opportunities missed, but it's kinda bugging me, anyway.

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