German soap opera drabble: Enough

[out_there]

If you thought that I could not be convinced to write fic for a boy-painring I've never even seen, you're so wrong. So celli's fault and all about…

Well, look. German soap opera, cute gay couple called Oliver and Christian. Details are here.



Enough

Christian walked into the apartment, letting the door swing shut behind him. He dropped his bag on the couch, and headed for the bathroom.

At 4pm, he didn't expect anyone else to be home, let alone using the shower. He certainly hadn't expected Olli and some beefy blond to be making out under the steam and hot water.

His tongue suddenly felt about four sizes too large for his mouth. Swallowing didn't help, but Christian tried it anyway.

Olli had his back against the shower curtain, one hand stretched up to hold on to the rail above. The water glued the plastic curtain against his skin, sticking to the muscles of his back, the curve of his ass, showing every movement as he shifted. Even the ridiculous polka dots didn't stop it from being the hottest thing Christian had ever seen.

The blond had thick, meaty hands, wide across the palm and stubby fingers. Christian knew this because he could see them sliding across Olli's back, dipping down to grasp a cheek firmly and yank Olli's hips against his.

Olli groaned. The sound was low and muted by the running water, but it startled Christian. He took a surprised step back and the corner of the basin bit into his side, and he turned, stumbling, managing to knock over everything, to bring it all clattering down loudly on the tiles.

He turned and ran as if the starter's shot had gone off. He heard Olli's shocked voice calling his name as he grabbed his bag and fled.

He went back to the school's campus, planning to wait as late as he could and then sneak in, avoiding Olli altogether. The only problem with the plan was that it left him a lot of time to think.

It shouldn't have been a surprise that Olli had someone over. A little embarrassing to walk in on him, but it shouldn't have felt like a punch to his gut. Olli was gay and Olli dated guys. Maybe he hadn't brought one home in a while, but Olli was smart and handsome, fun and kind, and it wasn't like...

Christian sighed. It wasn't like he'd thought Olli would be single forever, because that made no sense. Olli was... Christian wasn't sure, but he knew any guy would be lucky to have Olli.

So it was kind of stupid that he'd thought, what? That Olli would pine after him? That Olli would never sleep with another guy?

That Olli was somehow his, even though Christian was straight and he wasn't interested, and he didn't care that Olli had been wet and naked and rubbing up against some stranger.

Christian folded his arms, crouching over against the warm wind. He didn't care. He really didn't.

That was why he was sitting on the grass, waiting until Olli had gone to bed. Because he didn't care. He wasn't attracted to Olli. Even if he was, it wouldn't work because Christian wasn't gay. He wasn't.

He wasn't.

He also wasn't paying attention and was surprised when Olli dropped to the ground beside him. "You okay?"

Christian shrugged. "I'm fine."

"I think we just discovered the secret to improving your times on the field."

"I don't think you'd be allowed to do that at the start of each race," Christian muttered, feeling small and miserable. "I'll see you at home later."

Olli didn't move. Instead, he asked quietly, "Christian?"

"What?" Christian turned his head to glare at Olli and suddenly realised how close they were sitting, shoulder to shoulder. Olli's hands are lying in his lap, clasped tightly and looking as wretched as Christian felt. "Sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt."

Olli shrugged but his smile doesn't quite reach his dark eyes. "Kind of ruined the mood."

"You could have stayed," Christian continued. "You didn't have to come after me."

"Yeah, I did."

Christian frowned, watching Olli's hands. Olli sounded calm, but those tense fingers made it a lie. For all the things Christian's not sure of -- all the things he can't be and maybe is -- he never wanted to make Olli miserable. "I'm sorry," he said again, wishing class hadn't been cancelled in the first place.

Olli reached out, grabbing one of Christian's hands in his. "You don't have to be sorry. Just--"

"I'm not--"

"Maybe you're not." Olli nodded once. "But maybe... Maybe you're a little. Maybe that's okay."

If the ground opened up right now and swallowed him whole, Christian would consider it a good thing. "It doesn't feel like it."

"Maybe you have to give it some time," Olli said gently. His other arm slid across Christian's shoulders, pulling him towards Olli's chest and Christian followed his lead, settling his head against Olli's shoulder, leaning into him. Olli doesn't do anything other than hold him tight, one hand around his shoulders, the other hand entwined with Christian's.

It was enough.

Comments

[celli]

Yes, I twisted your arm SO HARD.

(Also, I think I told you Oliver's nickname wrong--it's Olli, not Ollie. Whoops!)

This could totally have happened on the show--Christian's "OMG! So not gay!" and Olli's "STFU, n00b!"

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Dude, you totally did! I have, like, internet bruises from all that twisting!

[boymommytotwo.livejournal.com]

you are both quite irresponsible for bringing to light and condoning another fandom full of hotness!!! terrible, just terrible!!!

let the fic continue!!!

[out-there.livejournal.com]

*hangs head in shame*

[astuta.livejournal.com]

Your icon. Were did it come from? I want to lick it so bad... only Gareth makes chest hair so sexy. Is it shareable?

[out-there.livejournal.com]

It's by cowboyhd, is available for sharing, adn is the best thing ever.

[minotaurs.livejournal.com]

Christian's "OMG! So not gay!" and Olli's "STFU, n00b!" - hahahahahahah! Their entire storyline in a nutshell.

[acari.livejournal.com]

Eeeeeeeeeeeee! Welcome to the dark side! Christian is so cute when he's angsting; I want to pat him on the head all the time. This could totally have happened. Could I convince you to post a link to this in seifen_slash?

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

Could I convince you to post a link to this in [info]seifen_slash?

(Reply to this)

Actually, could I ask a favour and get you to post a link? (I have this thing about not joining too many communities -- don't ask, really, it's dull -- but if there's a couple other fans who'd like it, it's not filtered so it should be fine.)

[hanuueshe.livejournal.com]

As someone who also watches this via YouTube, and therefore probably doesn't know any better, welld one.

*wiats for the day when American TV will be this good*

[out-there.livejournal.com]

*laughs* As someone who's never seen it, thank you!

[anitac588.livejournal.com]

*g*

Not sure when exaclty this part is set in (must be relatively early on, if Ollie was still fucking that guy from the gym), but already then Olli came after Christian, dumping his date, just to give comfort to his troubled roommate/the guy he was falling for.

Thank you.

[out-there.livejournal.com]

It was written while celli was watching, as an example of "if I was writing this, I'd have Olli have some random guy to make Christian jealous" and then the show did that, as I was writing it.

(Which is further proof I clearly need to sit down and watch this.)

[thelana.livejournal.com]

*cough* quick where/what/how to watch guide (http://community.livejournal.com/seifen_slash/6150.html?style=mine)*cough*

Though I wonder if they will actually ruin your inspiration. Hope they don't disappoint :D

as an example of "if I was writing this, I'd have Olli have some random guy to make Christian jealous" and then the show did that, as I was writing it.

Incidentally that is totally one of my favorite things about the show. That you don't just have this cliché, gay guy pines after straight guy, but Olli gets to do his share of slutting around a bit while he waits for Christian to come around. Love! To me that drives me more nuts about Nuke than any of the not kissing stuff. That it feels like Luke doesn't have any other options but wait around for Luke.

At least with Olli I know that when he's being crabby and pining, I know it's because he feels like doing it, not because he has to.

[thelana.livejournal.com]

I love it. It's just soooo *heart squish* if that makes any sense. The angst, so sweet! So precious, just soooooooo.... *has no words* Just the way you describe the hand and !! ... !!!

I can't believe that you haven't watched the story you. The insights are perfect, particularly Christian's take on Olli. And the way Olli talks to Christian. !!!

Sorry, not good with words at all. But I loved it!

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

I can't believe that you haven't watched the story you. The insights are perfect, particularly Christian's take on Olli. And the way Olli talks to Christian. !!!

We totally have celli to thank for that, who kept queeing and relaying the plot as she watched.

[amorispure.livejournal.com]

oh dear. an ollian fic. A VERY GOOD ONE!!!
oh how much joy!!!
thanks

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Oh, you wonderful person!! You wrote some fic! I have been pining for some fic! I was starting to think I was the only one writing any (and I write such weird rare crap; I really wanted some lovely Christian/Olli). And oh, this is so lovely! The right mix of domestic and racetrack and angst, and yet so sweet.

I loved these lines:
Swallowing didn't help, but Christian tried it anyway.
That was... *guh*

Christian folded his arms, crouching over against the warm wind.
And so was that. Oh, the image... It just conveyed so much!

Maybe you're a little. Maybe that's okay."
*swoons happily*

Here via thelana and seifen_slash.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

P.S. Also, I am all for the writing of the fanon from deep ignorance of the canon.

Whee!!!

[out-there.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Depending on the fan, sometimes relying on fanon is slightly better than the real thing.

[lobelia321.livejournal.com]

Oh, I totally, totally agree. I am that fan!

The weird thing about VL is, though: the canon is so... *whispers* well, crap. Except for the obsessive-making kissing and slashy bits. But at the same time there is virtually no fanon!! When I discovered SGA, I spent almost a year just reading fic before ever encountering my first bit of canon. But with VL, you could read all of the fic in 1/2 an hour.

'tis very odd. A very odd fandom.

*goes to rewatch That Kiss for the 26th time...*

Yay!

[mos-self.livejournal.com]

Go you! This is the perfect addition to what we all know must have happened (er, or what we all hoped happened in the days before the first real kiss).

Re: Yay!

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[junalele.livejournal.com]

Man. I just followed the link here from lobelia321's lj which you left in the comments and this is awesome. Okay, you made them talk like actual people instead of soap characters which is a bit weird. Without wooden, horrible dialogue and all. ;P But awesome.

Also weird is that in my head I pronounced "Christian" American when I'm actually German. Huh.

[thelana.livejournal.com]

He, I always feel ridiculously sorry for the people who youtube "Christian" in the sense of Christianity and might end up with Oliver and Christian.

[junalele.livejournal.com]

Mwahaha!! I hadn't even thought of that! Awesome! I mean, not for them but the idea... *snorkles*

Also, how awesome is your name? Such a cool twist on that movie title. Heh.

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Okay, you made them talk like actual people instead of soap characters which is a bit weird. Without wooden, horrible dialogue and all.

And without German accents. *sniggers*

But thank you. I think. *g*

[junalele.livejournal.com]

And without German accents. *sniggers*
That, too. Heh.

And it was absolutely meant as compliment so yes. You're more than welcome.

[jolie29.livejournal.com]

for someone who hasn't watched it, you did an awesome job!
thank you!

[jolie29.livejournal.com]

oh! you should watch it! lol
thanks again, awesome job!

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Oh, that's a cute icon!

And thanks!

[witheredsong.livejournal.com]

This is very lovely.

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[tyrical.livejournal.com]

This was wonderful.
A nice unguarded non-hostile moment with Christian.

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[elli.livejournal.com]

*Sighs*

It captures them quite well, I think...

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[astuta.livejournal.com]

This is amazing! Sweet and very caring. Wonderful :)

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[arcanise.livejournal.com]

Ooh I liked this, it was very angst and sweet, and I loved the ending =)

[out-there.livejournal.com]

Thanks!