Just call me McSpamity...
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out_thereI can always tell when a new fandom has taken over by musical associations. Now, I don't mean song associations as in vid association, because that's something totally different. I mean like associating radio/CD songs with a part of fandom.
Way back when I was into anime, and head-over-heels in love with Fushigi Yuugi, Garbage's Stroke of Luck was my Nakago song.
When I was more into SV, I considered Kasey Chambers (and damn if I don't keep trying to spell her name as 'Casey') A Million Tears used to be my Lex-woobie song.
All my life
I've welcomed pain
I've made up more excuses
To bring it back again
Now I'm here
And I'll drink to the shame
I'll drink to the madness
That made me this way
Now, it's my Danny-woobie song.
Likewise, Not Pretty Enough used to be my Chloe song, and now, it's my Dana song. (I'm mentally vidding it to Dana clips, mainly focused on S1 and Gordon, and the lack of credit for being funny stuff.)
Chorus:
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
[Chorus]
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can
Now, mind you, I've been listening to Kasey Chambers each night to and from work. I'm finding myself allocating songs to people. Natalie's is I Still Pray, the sweetest religious song ever. Crossfire is young and energetic, and just a bit flirtatious, so of course it's Kim's. There's a combination of determination and optimism in Runaway Train that makes me think of Jeremy. And, If I Were You just screams Casey to me:
If I was good, I'd tell everyone I know
If I was free, I wouldn't be so keen to go
If I was wrong, I would take it like a man
If I was smart, I would get out while I can
If I was broken, I would probably let it be
If I was dying, I wouldn't go out quietly
If I was lost, well my heart would feel the same
If I was honest, I would probably be ashamed
And, although not Kasey Chambers, Ani DiFranco's Untouchable Face feels like a Danny pov during the Lisa/Casey era. If I end up writing a slightly angsty, wanting-and-never-having fic, it'll be written to this.
I still consider Sugar Ray's Even Though as my upbeat Sam/Josh song. Some things just don't change. *g*
And, while I'm randomly babbling about stuff that makes me write, my orphan line has changed!
I remember talking to Celli about this idea of an orphan line. It's a line of dialogue that I hear, that never makes it to fic. I'm never quite sure which fandom/character it belongs to (hence the orphan), but it'll get me started thinking about a fic as I try to place it.
My old orphan line was: "Are you in love with me?" (And extra special brownie points if anyone actually recognises where I used it. *g*) It worked well. It could be angry, or accusing, or gentle, or hopeful, or despressed. It could be Sam, or Josh, or Clark, or Lex, or Dan, or even Casey. Now, it's been used. It no longer just pops into my head randomly, demanding that I tell myself the story to explain it.
I've found a new orphan line though. "I want to you to bend over, spread your legs and let me fuck you." It's like... my inner romantic got hijacked by my inner porn writer. *blinks* It's odd. And not nearly as inviting.
I'm wondering if I just have to use that line somewhere, and then I'll get given a new orphan line... (And, eep, I'm swearing and using Beeker as an icon. I feel dirty, somehow.)
Way back when I was into anime, and head-over-heels in love with Fushigi Yuugi, Garbage's Stroke of Luck was my Nakago song.
When I was more into SV, I considered Kasey Chambers (and damn if I don't keep trying to spell her name as 'Casey') A Million Tears used to be my Lex-woobie song.
All my life
I've welcomed pain
I've made up more excuses
To bring it back again
Now I'm here
And I'll drink to the shame
I'll drink to the madness
That made me this way
Now, it's my Danny-woobie song.
Likewise, Not Pretty Enough used to be my Chloe song, and now, it's my Dana song. (I'm mentally vidding it to Dana clips, mainly focused on S1 and Gordon, and the lack of credit for being funny stuff.)
Chorus:
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
[Chorus]
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can
Now, mind you, I've been listening to Kasey Chambers each night to and from work. I'm finding myself allocating songs to people. Natalie's is I Still Pray, the sweetest religious song ever. Crossfire is young and energetic, and just a bit flirtatious, so of course it's Kim's. There's a combination of determination and optimism in Runaway Train that makes me think of Jeremy. And, If I Were You just screams Casey to me:
If I was good, I'd tell everyone I know
If I was free, I wouldn't be so keen to go
If I was wrong, I would take it like a man
If I was smart, I would get out while I can
If I was broken, I would probably let it be
If I was dying, I wouldn't go out quietly
If I was lost, well my heart would feel the same
If I was honest, I would probably be ashamed
And, although not Kasey Chambers, Ani DiFranco's Untouchable Face feels like a Danny pov during the Lisa/Casey era. If I end up writing a slightly angsty, wanting-and-never-having fic, it'll be written to this.
I still consider Sugar Ray's Even Though as my upbeat Sam/Josh song. Some things just don't change. *g*
And, while I'm randomly babbling about stuff that makes me write, my orphan line has changed!
I remember talking to Celli about this idea of an orphan line. It's a line of dialogue that I hear, that never makes it to fic. I'm never quite sure which fandom/character it belongs to (hence the orphan), but it'll get me started thinking about a fic as I try to place it.
My old orphan line was: "Are you in love with me?" (And extra special brownie points if anyone actually recognises where I used it. *g*) It worked well. It could be angry, or accusing, or gentle, or hopeful, or despressed. It could be Sam, or Josh, or Clark, or Lex, or Dan, or even Casey. Now, it's been used. It no longer just pops into my head randomly, demanding that I tell myself the story to explain it.
I've found a new orphan line though. "I want to you to bend over, spread your legs and let me fuck you." It's like... my inner romantic got hijacked by my inner porn writer. *blinks* It's odd. And not nearly as inviting.
I'm wondering if I just have to use that line somewhere, and then I'll get given a new orphan line... (And, eep, I'm swearing and using Beeker as an icon. I feel dirty, somehow.)
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Date: 2004-05-12 06:23 am (UTC)I am the captain, and I have been told
that tomorrow we land and my ship has been sold
now, losing this boat is worth scarce a mention;
I think of the crew, most of all the first ensign--
for all we learned the sea...
guiding this ship, it takes more than your skill,
it's the compass inside, it's the strength of your will
the first ensign watched as tempests all tried me,
I sang in the wind as if God were beside me--
for all we learned the sea...
you take the wheel one more time, like I showed you
we've reached a strait once even I could not go through
I am the captain, and I have been told
but I am not shaken, I am eight years old
and you are still young, but you understand
that the stars on the sea are the same for the land, and
we came to learn the sea...
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Date: 2004-05-12 01:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-12 06:30 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-12 01:44 pm (UTC)It feels like a cheesy porn-film line. And now, it's just... annoying me a little, because I keep hearing it in Peter Kruase's low sex-voice, but I'm pretty damn sure it doesn't belong to Casey.
As we can tell, I'm damn good about worrying about little stuff to ignore the big stuff.
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Date: 2004-05-12 12:26 pm (UTC)I was born a fortunate son,
Mother gave me all her fear and attention
I worked to prove my worth to everyone,
earned my degree in self-destruction
There is little reward
For all this glorified pain--
I've got this soul-search hunger,
You've got this deep-heart desire
Though we tried to deny
we were perfect from the start...
Yeah, just saying.
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Date: 2004-05-12 01:32 pm (UTC)You've got this deep-heart desire
Though we tried to deny
we were perfect from the start...
Oh, oh *dude*. Perfect for Dan/Casey.
I'm going to have to download that song somehow.